The Planet Turns

My friends have been reminding me I haven't updated my blog in a while.  It's been hard for me to think about writing.  I don't know what to say and what to keep to myself.  Tell the truth or spin yarns to make a good story.

I think I choose neither.

Some truth is, this has been one of the worst periods of my life.  I feel like my life has completely fallen apart and yet, the planet still turns, the sun goes up and down, I still breathe air in and out.  The people involved are going on with their lives like nothing ever happened.

I have learned a few harsh realities about the people I thought would be there for me, and when I desperately needed them during this terrible time, they each turned their backs on me, in one form or another.

It's very hard to find out you are THAT alone when surrounded by people you trust.

That's not to say that everyone in my life has abandoned me.  I am extremely grateful to the people who have offered me love, support and kindness in the aftermath.  But even with their support, it is hard not to feel lonely and betrayed.

For now I'm just trying to lick my wounds.  I don't think I feel like writing much here for a while.